Guilt.
I take a look at my life, at the life my husband and I live, and I feel guilty. We have so much, and half the time don’t even realize what it is that we have. This last week has been eye opening for us. Living off the hamper was much harder than expected. Much harder. It involved a change in habits – from buying the groceries we needed to make our desired dinner, to not being able to go out when we just didn’t feel like cooking, to not engaging in social activities as most of them are centered around food or drink. Even with Luke being a really good cook, this week was hard – and the meals were not my favorite at all.
Some of the foods were great – yogurt, potatoes, corn, mushrooms, but others were a lot harder to use, or couldn’t be used as a meal. For example – the cookies, crackers, and tea biscuits. We have almost all of what they gave us, save for one pack of oreos left. Great snack foods, a nice treat – but how do you build a meal around crackers?
As a previous blogger mentioned – a good mantra to have is “If you won’t eat it, don’t donate it.” Not that the food bank doesn’t provide an incredible service that is much needed, but please, please, please try to think of what you are actually doing. Those donations of cookies and candy are great – everyone needs a treat – but when you are in survival mode – how are oreos the answer? I know for a fact that anything I donate in the future will be things that I would like to eat.
Guilt. For all the blessings that we have in this world, it took this blog project to really show us how lucky we are in terms of food. I always joke that we will never win the lottery because we are too lucky in love, but I do think I need to expand that statement – too lucky in life. We never want for food – or at least not the basics. After going through this project I feel guilty at all the times we complained about the price of organic produce or how much more organic free-run eggs were than regular eggs. All of that means nothing – there are soo many people that do not have the luxury of fresh produce, let alone organic or farm fresh. There are soo many people that struggle to make ends meet – that live off the food hampers not for something fun and interesting to do – but because they don’t have a choice.
I feel horrible. Guilty. And yet having gone through this week – I am very thankful they had ‘overflow’ food and we were able to go back and get some more fresh food – mushrooms, corn, onions, cherry tomatoes – those were a life saver this week – and really the only fresh food we had. Without them – which I understand does not happen all the time – this would have been a much harder experience. It was already much harder than I thought it would be.
I feel guilty over having everything that we have, and not being thankful for it. We take almost everything we have for granted – and because of that rarely think of those who don’t have the basics. This project has been so eye opening, making us more thankful for what we have. Our many, many thanks to the Calgary Food Bank, and to Husky, for seeing the massive need this city has for your services, and for helping raise awareness for such an amazing cause. I can only hope that one day the food bank will be able to close – for lack of need.
Many thanks.
-Jody &Luke.
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